I'm an 18 year old mother of two beautiful children, my son (2) and my daughter (10 months). I've literally been through hell and back. I conceived my first child when i was raped a week after my 15th birthday. My mother told me I couldnt get an abortion. I gave birth to him march 16, 2006. When I finally built up the courage to get this man in trouble they told me that i needed to take a paternity test as well as my son and that man, so i did. A year and a half after they finally told me, which i knew it was, Pauls son. So I had to face him in court. It was the hardest thing i will ever have to face in my life, besides life itself. They ended up giving him 14 months probation and no jail time, because they said that he was an important part of the community, because he has his own business. Ive tried to get child support from him up until the child support specialist kristy P. told me that he would get visitation rights, and i will never ever let my son meet him... he's a horrible man. If he did that to me when i was just a baby, who knows what he'd do to my son. Then I tried getting help from human services by getting a bridge card. that did not work. Still to this day i have been sending them applications, and they send me blank ones. I am not able to get a job because my mother is working a 2nd shift job from 4 pm to 4 am. Every day its a struggle for me. Worrying about whether or not im going to have food in a couple of days, wondering if im going to have a home in a couple of weeks. i usually have to go next door and borrow money that i cannot pay back. since my son has been born we've moved to 15 different homes, because my stepdad was on the run, whom now is in prison. My dad is unnable to take care of me and my babies because hes working at a pallet shop making 40 cents a pallet. Ive been kicked out from my mother and had to sleep in detroit in the dugouts on the baseball field, my mother, behind my back, was getting money and foodstamps for me and my son, and was claiming us and i never seen a penny of it, when im the one who has to borrow all of this money for food and daipers pfft, even toilet paper. Im 18 and only weigh 85 lbs... because of having to starve in order for my children to eat. My mother is a greedy and very bad person. i love her with all my heart. but she sees me struggle and cry everyday because of all this pressure i have on me and she smiles about it literally. I have no money for daipers, tampons, clothes and shoes for myself, food, and if i get kicked out i will not have rent. Ive lost hope and this is why i turned to this... because my neighbor told me that people will donate money to me and my babies. Ive tried getting into section 8 and after six months of being on the waiting list they told me that i need a source of income to get a house so i was rejected. I have lived with my friends who were still in high school, but had no money to pay for rent, so i had to come back to my moms. Ive tried getting my GED, but as soon as my stepdad went to prison my mom cried for me to come back so i could watch my 11 year old sister, basically my other daughter i have to raise and had to raise since i was 11, i miss basically my whole 5th grade year taking care of her when she was about 2 years old. Im more of the mother to my mom. i have all this pressure on me that i wish could just be lifted off of me. ive prayed everynight for god to help me get my life on track so that i didnt have to depend on people who are only only wanting me to live with them (my mom) for free money, its time i have to do something else. i have all these things i have to do like, I have to get a car. I have to get my own place. I have to get my GED, then i want to go to cosmetology school so i have an income for my babies. I mean all these things i have to worry about because im a teenager like collage and getting on my own so i dont have to worry about being homeless, getting a job, plus all of the things that adults have to worry about. Im so broken right now inside, because I need help so bad. i can not stay here with my mother anylonger last year my grandma struggled to get me 40$ for christmas and my mother stole it to get alcohol and a couple of months ago she admitted it. the christmas before that my stepdad got locked up and my mom had to take back all of our christmas presents to get him out of jail. And everynight at 4 am she has all her freinds from work come home and party. there is never a night where me and my babies sleep through the night. help us. all i want is to know that i have a home for my children that they can call home. i dont want them moving from schools to different schools like ive had to my whole life because my mom chose to be with a man who had a warrent. i want the best for my children as every parent does. I just need help from someone. anyone. My daughters father was abusing me and my son, doing pills, finally after 2 years ive just left him a couple months ago... because i do not want that for my babies, i know there is a better life out there then this. i want my babies out of this life im living. i want them to have a good normal home that i never had. i love them so much and im crying right now because it hurts me so bad that no one wants to just help me get started. ive even thought of adopting them out to a better family because i have nothing to give them or any one to help me. i need to get my babies in a stable home and a good enviroment. im lost and dont know what else to do. please help us. i need any help i can get. any money i can get even if its a dime or a nickel. god bless you and i hope you or someone you know will help us out, i cannot live in fear and depression any longer because im affraid i will lose my precious babies or even my life. thank you for your time and if your reading this your adorable. xoxo. please please please help us.
A.Kraemer
5689 nightingale st. dearborn heights mi. 48127
